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Awakening in the Heart

12/2/2015

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I’d like to share with you a knowing that revealed itself the other day. It happened in an instant of heart opening to a deep pain that welled up, and that felt very, very familiar. The pain had covered over the knowing, and it took being willing to feel the pain fully, to be totally present with it, before the knowing could emerge in its full force and its full clarity.

​The pain was, in its essence, the pain of being disconnected from love. The pain of losing my very being, which I knew to be Love. My whole life was suffused by this pain. The pain covered over the knowing of Love, until this knowing started shining through again, revealing itself in many ways, over and over. The way the pain expressed in my life was as depression, emotional disconnect, and as a total focus on the mind. The depression was excruciating in my teens and lifted somewhat in my twenties. Helped by many years of psychotherapy and emotional healing in my thirties, I started opening back up emotionally. My love affair with the mind slowly gave way to a life lived more fully at all levels: physical, emotional, mental, and eventually even spiritual.
In this moment of feeling the essence of the pain that had come to visit, I also knew the innocence of heart that the pain had obscured for so long. The innocence of heart that only knew Love, the purity of Love, the fragrance of Love. The innocence that knew itself to be that Love, and that had always known itself to be that Love. All the emotional healing, all the spiritual searching, my love affair with Love: all were part of the homecoming of the prodigal daughter who had lost her way in this human life, and who, by grace, realized that she needed to make her way back home.
 
The path home is a path that plays out over the life span of our human life. Homecoming never stops, it deepens endlessly. It reveals ever new ways that we have left home, that we have lost ourselves in the conditioning – called maya in the Eastern understanding – that was layered over and obscured the innocence of the heart. The heart will call us back. It’s our ticket and our compass to find our way back home. It’s totally trustworthy. If you hear it calling, through pain or through glimpses of its different flavors, don’t turn away. Let it reveal itself to you ever more fully. Let it guide you home.

I look forward to sharing the Awakening in the Heart retreat with you!
5 Comments
Marina
12/2/2015 01:00:59 pm

Thank you very much Grace for this beautiful sharing!
Love

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Grace Bubeck
12/7/2015 12:53:06 pm

Thank you for appreciating, dear Marina. Love to you, too!

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martine
12/7/2015 11:59:45 am

Merci beaucoup ! It feels familiar...very helpful reminder.

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Grace Bubeck
12/7/2015 12:55:44 pm

Glad it's helpful, Martine! And it has to feel familiar, how could it not since the heart is forever calling us home?

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Kian link
8/25/2021 03:40:20 am

First time here at your blog and wanted to say i enjoyed reading this.

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